A month into level 2 and I’ve hit my first real resistance.
Level 1 was challenging and required a lot of trial and error to figure things out, but level 2 is really hitting me hard.
I wondered if it was because I was still stuck in holiday mode and wasn’t back in the groove of things yet. I’m really excited about all the new skills we’ll get to practice in clinical this level. And the course load so far isn’t too bad. Similar to how it was in level 1 with less papers to write.
I didn’t even realize how stressed out I was until a week or two ago. I wasn’t even this stressed out in level 1 and everything was new to me back then. For a split second, I was asking myself if nursing was worth all this stress. The reason why I’ve been so stressed out is because of this one instructor that I have this semester. I realize this, so I’ve just been telling myself. 12 more weeks. I just need to get through these 12 weeks with this instructor and everything will be fine. It will be so worth it. I know I’ll love being a nurse. When interacting with patients in clinical. The days when I feel like I’m running around like a chicken with its head cut off are the days when I feel like I’ve made a difference in someone else’s life. And then, no matter how tired I feel at the end of the day, it’s worth it and I feel wonderful.
I’m trying to be positive. Keep myself organized and try to front load as much as I can. I feel thrown off.
Week 5 just started.
I just need to get through the next 12 weeks.
I can do this.